Thursday, June 09, 2005

Why Do I Watch This Movie

I got home this evening from seeing Big Death, Little Death at Woolly Mammoth (That is a post for another time), and had some work I wanted to get done while it was still reasonably cool in my apartment. So I decided to put in a movie for background noise. For whatever reason, the movie I chose was Love Actually.

Now, as my regular reader's know, I love this film. I think it is one of the truest treatments on the nature of love ever seen in pop culture. So you may ask why is watching it a problem, if I feel this movie so much.

I feel deep down that I have lost my capacity to fall in love. There is no one I am going to dodge airport security for, or cross international lines to profess my love to. And no one is going to do it for me, either. And it makes me sad.

And yes, I understand that while we may applaud such behavior in movies, we generally frown upon it in our day to day life. "That's not real love, that's just a display of passion." we say.

But don't we all want that? Is there anyone who can honestly say they don't wish someone was so crazy about us that they would risk humiliation and possible jail time to tell us so?

Maybe that is the key. We want someone to take a risk to express their affection. But that risk can be hard to take, and we often spend too much of our time waiting for the other person to take the leap first.

I wish there was someone out there who I was willing to take that risk for. I wish I could feel that strongly about someone. And even more I wish there was someone for whom that was mutual.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I think it does happen, but not as dramatically as in the movies. I've always thought of film, television and theatre as distortions of reality with elements of truth. I think you're being far too harsh on yourself that you don't think anyone can love you. What I'm about to say is meant in a teasing tone but, who died and left you in control of the Universe? Since when have you directed the earth across the solar ecliptic, re-arranged the stars in the heavens and had the ability to control other people's thoughts and emotions? You're a great guy but I seriously doubt your powers have reached that degree of potentency. There is only one thing we mere mortals can control and that is our individual selves.

The movie Love Actually is a great reflection of many different forms of love, and a wonderful reminder of how special that emotion can be but I'm detecting a bit of obsession here Funk Masta, might be time to just let it be man, let it be.